Chasing something stationary.

Before, all I wanted was things that I thought that can make me happy.
A beautiful dog with a breed, a motorcycle above 200cc that I can brag on the streets, shoes that are expensive which people who earn minimum wage cant afford.

My mind was set on the illusion that I wanted to be a person who's low profile but have these things.
I wanted people to actually see me as a humble man with things they never thought I could have.
I was wrong, I was a big braggart all along.
I thrived for unnecessary attention.

I feasted on the things that they would say. Involuntary, I desperately wanted to impress people which was contrary to what was my principle then - To be a low profiled man.
It was always a blur why after a long day I end up sitting by myself thinking why was I not happy.
I thought it was my environment to blame, its the circumstances Im going through why I cant be a happy person.
It was all me.

I hope I'm learning it the right way. That a part of being happy is lowering your standards and being contented with the things you already have, do not chase things which are far away from you, pay attention to those things that are ready for grasp.

Stop the chase, because you cant chase something that is already stationary.
Happiness is dwelling on the things that are given right in front of you, generating the power to smile and be truly happy with the things that ready to be yours for the taking.
Its a cliche that happiness is a choice. True! but its more likely to be a state of mind.
You can choose to be happy anytime but without true acceptance of settling on what's in fornt of you, making your heart and mind agree with each other and finally say  "I'm happy!" and actually deal with it, one cant be truly happy.

Now, I have a cute mutt puppy which I love and sleep beside with, I do not own a big bike but I found the joy of commuting and lastly my favorite pair of shoe that I always wear was bought from a thrift shop.
I do not own the things that I once thought that would make me happy, still I manage to find time at the end of the day thanking God for everything which I suppose is an evidence that I am somehow HAPPY.

- Renato P. Magbalon III